My Rad Last Five Months.... Another crazy idea I started!

Today’s Playlist:

N Manic Monday – Relient K

N Forever Young – So They Say

N Everyone Wants to Rule the World – Jamison Parker

N Power of Love – The Early November

N Assassin – Muse

Alright, anybody who knows me knows one true blue fact, I HATE WRITING JOURNALS. Why would you be writing a journal now? Well to explain that, I need rewind to one month ago. After over a month straight of severe headaches, blackouts, and a few seizures; my mom decided enough was enough and told me to go to my school’s on-campus doctor, again. The doctor didn’t know what else to do to help me so she sent me to the local doctor’s office, where they prescribed me some more prescriptions to try, saying that if the headaches didn’t get better to go see a specialist. So now we jump back to today, where I went to the specialist. He performed an MRI. I knew something was wrong. He explained that there was a cancerous tumor growing next to my cerebral cortex. He went on to explain that operating on it had a high fatality rate. They could try chemotherapy, but that has a slim chance of working. If we do nothing- I’m dead in five to six months.

When I called my mom to tell her what the doctor had said, I could barely speak. I’m only twenty. How can I only have five months left of my life? I am only a junior in college. I won’t be able to graduated, travel the world, fall in love…

Mom begged me to withdraw from school and move home so that she could take care of me. “Aislynn, you’re sick. We need to fight this. We’ll make you better. We have to try.” She pleaded over and over. I told her that I needed to think and I have been thinking. What do I want to be spending my last five months doing? Lying in a hospital, hooked up to machine, radiation eating its way through my body in an attempt to rid my brain of the tumor. Or… Hmm…

Alright with the depressing stuff for now, it is making my head ache even more than it already does. Since this is most likely going to be the one thing someone will remember me by, I guess I should tell a little bit about who I am. My name is Aislynn Marie ***, I am twenty years old, the youngest child of five, and an art major at *** University.